Hiding in the Shadows

Well I checked 'Kittys' AFF emails.... no reply from J. So I checked J's AFF emails. My email hasn't been read. Surely that's a good thing right? Must mean he hasn't been on his account. Still doesn't give me any proof one way or the other though. I still can't believe that J would do something like that though. I've been cheated on before, and they always seem to act differently - distant and jumpy. J isn't like that at all. I know I could just be being naive, but I just can't believe he'd do that.

I did find something in his emails though which pissed me off. A few weeks ago me and J placed an Ann Summers order *ahem*. It was done through a lady at work, but all done very discretely and no-one but us knew about it. Well I'm the kinda person who doesn't want other people knowing what I get up to n my private life like that. Anyway. J had sent an email with our shopping list of items on it to his brother!! He'd even included a small description from the website of what the items were!! I'm so embarrassed!!

Anyways. Will keep on checking AFF for possible evidence... Never thought I'd have to do this with J...

	This is my space to air my demons, where no-one knows my name. Here I sit, quietly, hiding from the world.
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I hide beneath the black clouds of my broken soul, The soul that holds the love that is left, And the clouds that hold the life we could have lived. A twisted love runs deeper than the blood in my veins. But the past still exists, so please dont try to walk away. My broken soul is all you can see, and the black clouds will always be here. As I stare at my reflection through shattered glass, I take a look into our past. Will you ever realize how I feel? Our past can never be forgotton. Im still beneath the black clouds, Hiding from my misery. The love is still there, but the life has dissapeared. Do you understand what im trying to say to you now? If I told you I love you, I meant it with every breathe. If say I need you, I tell the truth. The black clouds are full of my pain, and my broken soul is all that I have left. So I will stare at my reflection through this shattered glass, and hide beneath the black clouds of my broken soul, The love still exists, and I wonder, What happened to the dream that we both could be living... ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~*~
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