Hiding in the Shadows

No going back...

So that's it then. Things really are serious now. J has officially moved out of his freezer/shit-hole of a flat, and spent the weekend moving his stuff into mine. He's been living with me for the past few months anyway, so nothing has really changed, other than I've got less space now. It's strange though, cos I kept getting cold-feet thoughts... Is this really what I want? Is it too soon? Are we making a big mistake?
Don't get me wrong, I love having J living with me, and I've not once wanted the house to myself since he started staying over. I guess I'm just worried incase it all goes pear shaped. Silly paranoid fool, I know.

Ah well, I guess watch this space for things to come!!

Bubbles & Birthdays

Well Valentines day has been and gone. Hope yours was as lovely as mine. J had the day off work, and as I'm working on 2pm-10pm shifts this week, we had the whole morning to snuggle in bed, and I even got a cup of tea and a pan-au-chocolat!! Lucky girl!! Not only that, but when I got home last night, he took me upstairs (not for that you naughty munkys!!) and had a hot bubble bath ready for me, complete with loads of candles!! Even with working, it was just a lovely day. I got a card, but no pressie. He is very skint though, and has promised to get me something on pay-day. No biggy - I don't need a pressie. The thoughts and gestures of brekkie in bed, and the bubble bath was enough. Yeah, I'm easily pleased lol. I've got him a pressie. Though, considering what it is, it's more 'our' pressie.... hehe. Shall I just say it's black & pink and very lacy... ;) Should be a good weekend....

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I know I've not really written for ages. I guess there's not much to say. Work is pants as always, love life is good, and nothing exciting is happening. Boring I know, but it's nice not to have any dramas for a change. I guess one bit of exciting news is that my Mum bought me some driving lessons for my birthday, so as soon as I get my provisional licence through, I'll be terrorising the roads in my area. Yeah I'm well excited, but also sh*tting myself... having been in 2 minor car accidents in my life, I don't have great faith in me being able to manovour a vehicle around without causing any damage or injury to anyone/thing... Eek... Well I'll let you know how things go when I start them.

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Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me.... la-la-laaa....

	This is my space to air my demons, where no-one knows my name. Here I sit, quietly, hiding from the world.
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I hide beneath the black clouds of my broken soul, The soul that holds the love that is left, And the clouds that hold the life we could have lived. A twisted love runs deeper than the blood in my veins. But the past still exists, so please dont try to walk away. My broken soul is all you can see, and the black clouds will always be here. As I stare at my reflection through shattered glass, I take a look into our past. Will you ever realize how I feel? Our past can never be forgotton. Im still beneath the black clouds, Hiding from my misery. The love is still there, but the life has dissapeared. Do you understand what im trying to say to you now? If I told you I love you, I meant it with every breathe. If say I need you, I tell the truth. The black clouds are full of my pain, and my broken soul is all that I have left. So I will stare at my reflection through this shattered glass, and hide beneath the black clouds of my broken soul, The love still exists, and I wonder, What happened to the dream that we both could be living... ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~*~
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