Hiding in the Shadows
No-one knows I'm here...
Friday, November 30, 2007

Little 'L'

Well, things are going well on the relationship front. We've spent loads of time together, and are getting on great. However, last night things shot up to super-turbo speed... We were sat on the sofa, watching tele, as we have done numerous times before. He turned round to kiss me, and told me he had fallen completely in love with me... Yep, you read right. Not even a 'I think I am...'. I didn't know what to say... I was flattered, obvously. But I couldn't say it back to him. We've only been together a few weeks - not even a month yet. It's just too soon. Plus the last person I was in love with was D, and he broke my heart. So I didn't say anything.
After about 20 minutes, he told me again, as though I didn't believe him the first time. I still didn't know what to say. I told him we'd not been together that long, and he replied that he knew that it was a bit fast (understatement me thinks...), but he felt so strong about this.
So now I don't know what to do... To be honest I've seen this coming for the past couple of weeks, as he's told me a few times that he's never felt this way about anyone before. The problem is, that he's been married before - after proposing to her just 3 months into their relationship. He says himself it was too much too fast, but still... after just 3 weeks he's telling me he loves me. And there's Xmas coming up... Maybe I should have a word with his brother, try and hint at any kind of ring as a gift would not be a good idea... I don't even know that he would tbh, but it's a scary thought. Yeah, I do like him alot. And the more time we spend together, the more I like him, and the more I want to be with him. But this is going a bit fast for my liking. I don't want him to think that because I'm not saying I love him back, that I don't want to be with him, cos that's certainly not the case. I just wish he'd slow down a bit...

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Holy Moley!!

Well, I never thought that'd happen... Just a few weeks ago we'd never even spoken, and this morning, you wake up beside me.
When you came to Alton Towers with us on Saturday, you seemed distant. We'd been texting for a few weeks before, but still I wasn't sure if you were interested or not. Then Saturday came and went, and I thought I was reading the signals right, that you wern't interested at all. But you came round last night, as a friend, for some TV and company, and left as... well, I'm not sure... You've made your feelings for me quite clear now, so where do we go from here? We both want more. And it's almost certain it will happen. Is this going to get serious then? Do you want that? Do I want that? T is still wanting to meet up, and I don't know what to say to him... He feels he missed his chance when I got with A, and now he's actually single, I know he really wants to see if there's a possibility of me and him being something serious... I like him, but he lives far away... and I like you aswell... My head is going round in circles thinking about it all... Technically I am single, so I'm not doing wrong towards anyone, but as neither of you know about the other one, I can't help feeling a little wrong about it. But then me and T have never even met, but still, there's the talking about it, the arranging it... *sigh* I don't know what to do for the best... I don't want to hurt either of you...

I'm single for a whole year, then my love life is like a revolving door for a month... fecking typical... lol