Hiding in the Shadows
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Monday, May 21, 2012

Ups and downs. And more Ups.

I finally decided that me and J are definitely not going to be getting back together. I've been round to his a couple of times since we got back in touch. It was like old times in a lot of ways. Unfortunately not all of those ways were a good thing. It was tempting to agree to give things another try, but after getting home one morning and finding that my clothes stank of cigs... no thank you... He may have cut out the weed, and may be smoking less than before, but it's not something I can overlook. I've not been back since, despite a couple of invites.

So the search continued on POF. I thought I'd hit the jackpot with the lovely Matt from Spalding. He was cute, funny, and shared my love for engines and F1. We got on great, spoke on the phone a few times, had those first text in the morning/last text at night moments. So I went down to see him over May bank holiday. Imagine the shock horror to realise there was no spark. None. Nada. Instead of staying there for 5 nights as planned, I was on my way home less than 24hrs later. I was actually surprised how disappointed I was. We got on so well before, but face to face was just like meeting a different person - it made me nervous and uncomfortable, so I guess I came across as a different person too.
We've spoke briefly since, and he's mentioned meeting up again and seeing if it was just nerves that got in the way... I've made it clear it's not going to happen. If there's no instant spark the first time, it's hardly going to happen the 2nd right? Plus I don't fancy another 2-3hr drive again for it to not be worth it again...

Back to the drawing board, and by this point, I'm loosing all interest in POF. Trying to find 'decent' among the weirdo, fugly, and chavvy types is just exhausting.

That's where Mr Tall comes in (6'3! Least I have no worries about wearing heels around him...). So he's noticed my interest list, and seems to have the same list. We spend the following few hours talking about F1, and he casually says I should drop into his for a cuppa if I'm not busy over the weekend. He's only in Leeds, so no 3hr drive this time. What the hell - what's the worst that can happen...? Well I'm happy to report there was no worst. In fact, it was fab. I went over Saturday afternoon, and didn't leave til almost 10. He's just lovely, and there was more than a little chemistry. He seems to be almost everything I like in a guy. Only problem was the stubble was kinda rugged at first, then I found it was just pure torture. Apparently he doesn't do clean-shaven. Ever. Bugger... People have done worse for love though right? ;) We can work on that.
So anyways - we got on that well that I'm going back over there next weekend for the F1, and he's coming with me to the Stanford car show in June (can't wait to see Fraz's face..!!).

Because of Mr Tall, I've told Mr Persistent I'm backing off. I was going to tell him it was off completely because I didn't see 'us' as a couple', but lost my bottle and told him I just can't do serious relationship stuff just yet. I'm not going to see him for the next two weekends anyways, so I can see how things with Mr Tall go, and if it looks good, I can tell Mr Persistent it's off for good. I know, I shouldn't be hedging my bets and keeping my options open, but I know my luck. And it sucks.

Anyways - aside from all the guy-stuff that's been going on, I finally got round to trying out contact lenses. It's only taken me 2yrs from when I first started wearing glasses... I've found, that despite the initial uncomfortableness, and the fact it takes me ages to get them in, they're fab. Why have I not used these before?! Definitely something I'm going to look into more. Hah, no pun intended!


Blogger Dean said...

I think you've invented a whole new line of Mr Men books :) Makes me wonder what name you'd give me...? I have Mr Grumpy slippers on, but I don't think that fits. The slippers do (fit) - they're real cosy :)

It's good to hear things are on the up. You and your relationships! Don't you think life is easier just being single?

Enjoy your weekend with Mr Topsy-Turvy ;)

Blogger Dancing Shadow said...

Now there's an idea...Better patent that before someone else comes up with it!

I reckon you'd be Mr Artistic... or Mr Creative... Or maybe Mr Stop-mo... Maybe not :)

Of course life is easier being single, but where's the fun in that?! Besides, it's nice to have someone to share stuff with. Friends can only fill that void so much...


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