Clearing up before the mess
So after a text from J asking if I wanted to meet up again, I decided I needed to clear some stuff up before there was any misunderstanding later on... I told him it was great meeting up again and hanging out, and I'd love to continue doing that, but I'm just not ready to get into anything more serious right now. He said he completely understood, and was more than happy just to hang out and see how things work out in the future, although he did say he thought I've looked amazing and he'd love for us to try again sometime, but right now is just too soon after only being back in touch a couple of weeks. So glad we're both on the same wavelength over this. I'd rather be straight with him from the start than him getting the wrong idea and feel I've misled him in any way.
From making one situation better, to making another one worse. I've been arguing at Fraz again. I say arguing at him, because as usual, it's me shouting (via email) at him, and him merely responding... He's been made a moderator on a forum we both use. This has pissed me off to new levels. He's unreliable, untrustworthy, and a compulsive liar, yet he's been rewarded (in my eyes) with a position of trust! Once I started ranting about that, that was it - all previous rant-material resurfaced. Now even he's left wondering if we should still try to be friends... I reckon we need space from each other. Trouble is, that would mean me leaving that forum, and cutting our mutual friends off FB. It would also mean I'd have to miss out on several car-shows because I know he'll be at them. One one hand, it'd be nice to have a completely clean break from him and not have constant reminders popping up. On the other hand, why the fuck should I give up stuff I enjoy, when I've done nothing wrong in all this?! Either way I can't win :(
And as well as all that going on, I still have Mr Persistent being, well persistent. I still don't fancy him, but I have found that he's a really sweet, caring person. The constant stream of silly little gifts are sweet too lol.
In some ways, it's nice to have guys in my life like this, but it's so exhausting, and so much hassle!!
From making one situation better, to making another one worse. I've been arguing at Fraz again. I say arguing at him, because as usual, it's me shouting (via email) at him, and him merely responding... He's been made a moderator on a forum we both use. This has pissed me off to new levels. He's unreliable, untrustworthy, and a compulsive liar, yet he's been rewarded (in my eyes) with a position of trust! Once I started ranting about that, that was it - all previous rant-material resurfaced. Now even he's left wondering if we should still try to be friends... I reckon we need space from each other. Trouble is, that would mean me leaving that forum, and cutting our mutual friends off FB. It would also mean I'd have to miss out on several car-shows because I know he'll be at them. One one hand, it'd be nice to have a completely clean break from him and not have constant reminders popping up. On the other hand, why the fuck should I give up stuff I enjoy, when I've done nothing wrong in all this?! Either way I can't win :(
And as well as all that going on, I still have Mr Persistent being, well persistent. I still don't fancy him, but I have found that he's a really sweet, caring person. The constant stream of silly little gifts are sweet too lol.
In some ways, it's nice to have guys in my life like this, but it's so exhausting, and so much hassle!!
Posted in the darkness ~
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